Monday, May 4, 2009
♥ Blue Mondayyyy...
Dear my beloved cousin,
I know u must be in a very-down state right now...Not being able to see the most important person in our life is also equals to not being alive.. However, life must go on..Let's pray for your mom to be happy up there..key???
I love you, so does your mom =)
xoxoxoxoxo,
Epe
I often ask myself "Do people feel happier when they're still alive? OR "do they feel happier when they are not in this world anymore?"
Just received a very very bad news from my cousin yesterday evening.. It's regarding my 3rd aunt, who passed away on that day...I was totally blank for a few second before I realized that I can't see her anymore..Not even once..
*Flashback*
We (my cousin and I) were playing together until one of us tried to snatch others' toy..I still remembered that I pinched my cousin till she cried..probably a very loud one..our mom's (my mom and hers, who's also my 3rd aunt) came and tried to separate us..each mom was carrying her kid then..
This happened many many years ago, hmmmm..around 10 years ago..I had my mom, and of course she had hers to protect us..
*Present*
My mom passed away 5years ago, which means that I have to start standing on my own and protect myself..
Currently, this happened to my cousin too, whom I used to fight with...
Then this question appeared in my mind:
"Why God have to create someone who's very precious to us, when in the end they'll take them back?"
I've always find that life is unfair..Life is like a punishment towards us (birth, old,sick,and death).
However, It suddenly came across my mind:
" The reason why God took our beloved one is to give us chances for going another step further"
He took my mom 5 years ago, yeahhh..I was angry, I was very very upset..But then, I believed that I will not be the "today's-me" if he did not do that. I do believe that I'd become a girl who wont appreciate herself and others around her.. Since then, I've also become a family-come first person..
What I am really hoping rite now is that we can take positive points out of any happenings in our life..we'll find that it's unfair, but..That's Life..No right or wrong...
Loves,
Epe
I know u must be in a very-down state right now...Not being able to see the most important person in our life is also equals to not being alive.. However, life must go on..Let's pray for your mom to be happy up there..key???
I love you, so does your mom =)
xoxoxoxoxo,
Epe
I often ask myself "Do people feel happier when they're still alive? OR "do they feel happier when they are not in this world anymore?"
Just received a very very bad news from my cousin yesterday evening.. It's regarding my 3rd aunt, who passed away on that day...I was totally blank for a few second before I realized that I can't see her anymore..Not even once..
*Flashback*
We (my cousin and I) were playing together until one of us tried to snatch others' toy..I still remembered that I pinched my cousin till she cried..probably a very loud one..our mom's (my mom and hers, who's also my 3rd aunt) came and tried to separate us..each mom was carrying her kid then..
This happened many many years ago, hmmmm..around 10 years ago..I had my mom, and of course she had hers to protect us..
*Present*
My mom passed away 5years ago, which means that I have to start standing on my own and protect myself..
Currently, this happened to my cousin too, whom I used to fight with...
Then this question appeared in my mind:
"Why God have to create someone who's very precious to us, when in the end they'll take them back?"
I've always find that life is unfair..Life is like a punishment towards us (birth, old,sick,and death).
However, It suddenly came across my mind:
" The reason why God took our beloved one is to give us chances for going another step further"
He took my mom 5 years ago, yeahhh..I was angry, I was very very upset..But then, I believed that I will not be the "today's-me" if he did not do that. I do believe that I'd become a girl who wont appreciate herself and others around her.. Since then, I've also become a family-come first person..
What I am really hoping rite now is that we can take positive points out of any happenings in our life..we'll find that it's unfair, but..That's Life..No right or wrong...
Loves,
Epe
3:16 AM
